Yesterday was OK; only myself, Tay and Joaquin went to the cemetery. Kuya Uge's been killing himself working doubles to pay off his bills and here I am sitting on 5K not paying any of mine. It's funny, I was committed to paying all those off so that someday I could get an Amex card whenever I become I citizen. And yet, here I am ignoring all of that good stuff again because I just don't give a frak. It's so hard to find motivation in anything these days. Except for buying a new cell phone. I've only had my BlackJack for 6 mos & I'm eyeing the BJ2. It's wine red you fraks!
The kid is so funny. She was sitting here eating all her dinner last night so that she can have a cupcake for dessert. She was yapping away talking about a duck she saw in the park and how she threw a rock at it because she didn't know if it was real or not. Then she was talking about how she was going to put the Appleman's (Vitrivuin Man print hanging between the sala & dining room) apple on my nose. And how she has a bowl of soup for my face. She's a little jerk.... lol!
I had a dream the other night how Fancy and I were on a transport ship. And she was telling me something that I couldn't really hear. I was quite apprehensive about the post I was being assigned to, the duties weren't quite the same as being a CAG. There are times I wish I joined the military, how different my life would be! And for some reason the other day I thought of that boy, Cameron [really long last name I think] who was in ROTC back in Rutgers who had asked me to the ROTC ball when i was 18 years old and I turned him down. Then I'm reminded of Kristy who married her ROTC guy and wonder if maybe I'd be married to a military man myself. And sometimes if I weren't so lazy or such a coward, I'd sign up for the military for the sole reason of getting out of my own skin because if anything these days I just hate myself.
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