never forgotten

7 years already.
another 50 years it'll be a section on international terrorism and some kid is gonna write midterm paper on it. hand it in to the prof along with his internship notes, score an A.

there are 2 things that make me cry with just a thought. Ma passing away and that day 7 years ago. There was fear and numbness and noise all rolled into one mortal coil. i wanted to run, i didn't know where tho. The sound of an USAF F16s or Vipers rushing above towards NYC, presumably to shoot down anything else targeting any other landmarks, breaking the sound barrier. see it above then boom! the windows shook. the feel of something in you bottoming out when they announced the WTC twin towers have collapsed. Waking up to the morning news of a plane crashing into the first tower and thinking my God, how'd that happen it's such a clear day. Then watching in horror and disbelief as the live news coverage showed another plane aimed at the second tower. The signal lost for a few seconds, coming back on to the horror and disbelief of the on air news staff. It was no accident. I went to the bar that night, Martina's Cantina I think, it was all over the news of course. people were trapped. people had jumped. people had said their goodbyes and made peace with Him. oh God, you can see the smoke and debris dust from the apt building, but we're so far south. that can't be right. for lack of anything else to do, my girls and i went to target on rt. 18, watched the parade of ambulances headed to NYC on the closed highways. all silent, all lit, all going at the same speed, all inside mentally preparing themselves for the abject chaos, entropy at one of it's purest forms, they will see. i worked that day, for an obscene amount of hours for me at the time. now it's 12 hour days easy. people didn't know where to go. people called their parents up and asked how they were doing and if they could come home and see them. i ate out of necessity. not sure if i slept. school was closed the next day.

how could anyone forget?

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