turning leaves

well well well... had an ultrasound scheduled. unfortunately i still don't know the results as they had no film when they were done with the tests so i couldn't get a copy. i should hope my doctor would call me if there was something wrong. either that or my father is completely correct in his assessment that the secretary at his office is for crap and record keeping is spotty at best.

i'm out from work for 2 weeks, scheduled to return on 10/13. what's great about the whole situation is that the lady boss is going to hold this against me. apparently she doesn't understand the horrific beautiful truth about calling out sick is (1) it's unexpected and (2) you can't say/do much about a doctor's note. i can't return to work unless he says so and if do go to work before my time, she'll have an hr matter. let's ignore the fact hr asked me if i had an std and if needed help to let them know. clearly we have different definitions of herniated disc. anyway... what can i say? professionalism is dead where i work. of course i say that because i've worked too damn long in that place and i'm just fresh out of non-bitter juice. stock full of hater-ade though. God knows i can go on forever about all the wrong things that happen there. i should've just been a lawyer; at least i'd have more money and not have to be categorized with children as my peers. SO yeah, boss lady did not have a great reaction leading to actually a few snarky emails which i did not indulge with a response because i am trying to be adult about the whole thing. and i'm not supposed to be destressing regardless. clearly boss lady took it personally which is completely ridiculous. i'll reserve my thoughts on her appointment on another blog.

i can't say that i miss work. i do miss some of the people, others i had no regard of or opinion otherwise. they could be potted plants for all i care. i would have liked to have been proven wrong about hello kitty nazi [hkn] but i know when i do return, she'll probably make me "pay for it." obviously being sick warrants retribution from upper management. i should've just quit when i did and maybe hkn and i could've been friends. oh well. what's even greater is that i could've taken the time off sooner but there misplaced loyalty on my part, dutifully waiting until everyone came back from vacation til i sprung this sick thing on her. nevermind the fact she sent me home on a monday because i spent a half hour clutching my sides in pain (completely masking my panic attack mind you, which no one knew about). or i have been updating her about it. or the fact that she let 2 mgrs go take time off regardless of lack of staffing because the other reason for time off was soooo valid. the next time i want to take time off i'll let hkn know my boyfriend's in town. losers, i can't stand them. the situation's so f*ed up, it's just laughable. i hesitate to believe her being so obtuse about things, but obviously i don't need to hesitate any longer. i should also add selfish and self serving to that list of characteristics. and if were 10 yrs old and ignorant, i'd call her retarded.

really the only left to do is brush myself off, pick up my stuff, clean up my desk, and realize that sometimes the brightest light comes from a burning bridge.

fight 'em til you can't. 100308/1841hrs