well, i went for the follow up with dr. norman today. tay was parking the car and he went outside to get something and saw me standing there. anyway, he went over my mri results. i have some slight disc bulging in 2 points along my spine but not where it compromises my spinalcord. i'm not sure how that could be treated but he said some therapy ought to do it just fine. so that's that. and then i have a herniated disc on the neck part of my spine. also, where the spine should be slightly curved to hold my head up, my spine is straight in that portion. causing pain and other delicious sorenesses. anyway he recommended some therapy, not everyday or anything, but it would beneficial for me to do so. the first step is conservative therapy, which is basically lie down to reduce stress on your spine and take anti-inflammatory drugs like ibuprofen or whatever else they may have prescribed to you. that muscle relaxant is gonna come in real handy.
it sort of pissed me off, herniated disc? wtf?! i got myself portable speakers for my ipod (iMainGo) and a MS usb wireless mouse. it sort of made me feel better. i think i need some time off.
fight 'em til we can't. 091208/1919hrs
Friday, September 12, 2008
never forgotten
7 years already.
another 50 years it'll be a section on international terrorism and some kid is gonna write midterm paper on it. hand it in to the prof along with his internship notes, score an A.
there are 2 things that make me cry with just a thought. Ma passing away and that day 7 years ago. There was fear and numbness and noise all rolled into one mortal coil. i wanted to run, i didn't know where tho. The sound of an USAF F16s or Vipers rushing above towards NYC, presumably to shoot down anything else targeting any other landmarks, breaking the sound barrier. see it above then boom! the windows shook. the feel of something in you bottoming out when they announced the WTC twin towers have collapsed. Waking up to the morning news of a plane crashing into the first tower and thinking my God, how'd that happen it's such a clear day. Then watching in horror and disbelief as the live news coverage showed another plane aimed at the second tower. The signal lost for a few seconds, coming back on to the horror and disbelief of the on air news staff. It was no accident. I went to the bar that night, Martina's Cantina I think, it was all over the news of course. people were trapped. people had jumped. people had said their goodbyes and made peace with Him. oh God, you can see the smoke and debris dust from the apt building, but we're so far south. that can't be right. for lack of anything else to do, my girls and i went to target on rt. 18, watched the parade of ambulances headed to NYC on the closed highways. all silent, all lit, all going at the same speed, all inside mentally preparing themselves for the abject chaos, entropy at one of it's purest forms, they will see. i worked that day, for an obscene amount of hours for me at the time. now it's 12 hour days easy. people didn't know where to go. people called their parents up and asked how they were doing and if they could come home and see them. i ate out of necessity. not sure if i slept. school was closed the next day.
how could anyone forget?
091208/0159hrs
another 50 years it'll be a section on international terrorism and some kid is gonna write midterm paper on it. hand it in to the prof along with his internship notes, score an A.
there are 2 things that make me cry with just a thought. Ma passing away and that day 7 years ago. There was fear and numbness and noise all rolled into one mortal coil. i wanted to run, i didn't know where tho. The sound of an USAF F16s or Vipers rushing above towards NYC, presumably to shoot down anything else targeting any other landmarks, breaking the sound barrier. see it above then boom! the windows shook. the feel of something in you bottoming out when they announced the WTC twin towers have collapsed. Waking up to the morning news of a plane crashing into the first tower and thinking my God, how'd that happen it's such a clear day. Then watching in horror and disbelief as the live news coverage showed another plane aimed at the second tower. The signal lost for a few seconds, coming back on to the horror and disbelief of the on air news staff. It was no accident. I went to the bar that night, Martina's Cantina I think, it was all over the news of course. people were trapped. people had jumped. people had said their goodbyes and made peace with Him. oh God, you can see the smoke and debris dust from the apt building, but we're so far south. that can't be right. for lack of anything else to do, my girls and i went to target on rt. 18, watched the parade of ambulances headed to NYC on the closed highways. all silent, all lit, all going at the same speed, all inside mentally preparing themselves for the abject chaos, entropy at one of it's purest forms, they will see. i worked that day, for an obscene amount of hours for me at the time. now it's 12 hour days easy. people didn't know where to go. people called their parents up and asked how they were doing and if they could come home and see them. i ate out of necessity. not sure if i slept. school was closed the next day.
how could anyone forget?
091208/0159hrs
Thursday, September 11, 2008
iPods galore
well steve jobs hates you. at least he hates you having money. the new iPods have been released into the wild and they are hot. the new iPod touch for example, currently on the short list of things to get but at least it's got a name. the other 2 items on the list are "netbook" and "kick ass cell phone." of course, by the end of the year we're also making our 2nd trip to tiffany's. that's alot of paychecks mate. of course these are things i don't really need. i have a perfectly fine laptop to use for internet and such so a netbook would just be redundant, but smaller. another cell phone, also useless as my samsung smartphone is more than enough for my average daily use of phone calls, massive texting, aim messaging, and facebook/ff-bsg browsing. i don't need another smartphone at all. as for the ipod touch, i have 2 perfectly fine mp3 players. in fact the nano in a fetching red, and the creative zen has all the software features that the new itouch has. realistically, a bunch of these software additions and hardware modifications have been on other companies' mp3 models. so ipods are popular because they're trendy, not so much technologically revolutionary. steve jobs is brilliant, even if he hates you.
now about me, ha! i've been feeling mighty off lately. i can't even sort mail without wanting to either drink myself to a stupor or whatever else may get me to that numbed sort of existence. i mean, honestly! i can't even clean my own room and usually i'm quite fastidious about keeping my ish clean. laundry? pfft! dry cleaning? pffft! common areas? ha! it bothers me for a fleeting moment, like head to toe annoyed at the situation and it just burns itself out and fizzles out to apathy. there's not even any food in the house and my GOD the grocery is a mere 2 minutes away and i'll just sit in front of the boobtube and watch more bloody hgtv. i definitely keep alot of big stuff in, despite running my mouth all the time. i just can't do things anymore. i don't take care of myself. i don't sleep [*cough* it's 2:13am and i'm blogging]. i don't drink enough water. i don't really eat and when i do it's not healthy stuff. i don't exercise. i'm not saying it's translating into psychosomatic concerns, shooting pains on my sides, heavy body, leaden limbs, fuzzy head but yeah i'm not doing so hot. time to make some moves. and i need to remember that God never gives you anything you can't handle.
fight 'em til you can't. 091108/0217hrs
now about me, ha! i've been feeling mighty off lately. i can't even sort mail without wanting to either drink myself to a stupor or whatever else may get me to that numbed sort of existence. i mean, honestly! i can't even clean my own room and usually i'm quite fastidious about keeping my ish clean. laundry? pfft! dry cleaning? pffft! common areas? ha! it bothers me for a fleeting moment, like head to toe annoyed at the situation and it just burns itself out and fizzles out to apathy. there's not even any food in the house and my GOD the grocery is a mere 2 minutes away and i'll just sit in front of the boobtube and watch more bloody hgtv. i definitely keep alot of big stuff in, despite running my mouth all the time. i just can't do things anymore. i don't take care of myself. i don't sleep [*cough* it's 2:13am and i'm blogging]. i don't drink enough water. i don't really eat and when i do it's not healthy stuff. i don't exercise. i'm not saying it's translating into psychosomatic concerns, shooting pains on my sides, heavy body, leaden limbs, fuzzy head but yeah i'm not doing so hot. time to make some moves. and i need to remember that God never gives you anything you can't handle.
fight 'em til you can't. 091108/0217hrs
Thursday, September 4, 2008
MRI
well, last night I did my 2nd training for the overnight. cynnia is def more organized than jason, but to be fair jason had a really awful cold that night & it was prob a miracle he did the overnight. on top of being robbed at knifepoint in the bronx, he had a crappy evening. lesson learned? don't have your blackberry on your belt, especially when it's labor day weekend and there are alot of out of towners. his parents have lived in that neighborhood for 20 years and he'd never had a problem.
i took tues off since cynnia offered to work, not wanting to lose her vaca day and hello kitty nazi already owed me a day from when goopy's pet called out 15 min before her shift & basically screwed me to do a last min double, for an overnight i wasn't trained for. while operationally it's a good idea for everyone to know how to do every shift, let's not deny that the training was brought about because goopy's pet had whined to hello kitty nazi that it's not fair she had to the overnight's whenever jason or cynnia were out. i kind of want to explain to both of that that's how seniority works and that the number 2, in position and treatment mind you, should not have to do any overnights. if she actually schedules me for one, i'm going to refuse it. office politics is so stupid. and i'd be the first to say i didn't want her as a manager because she's such a child. Lord, she tried to call out sick because she had her period! it makes you want to laugh & then start working half assed because hard work doesn't mean much especially if someone so idiotic is favored over you just because the mr. bipolar upstairs [or under the stairs] favors her.
anyway, now i'm waiting to go the medical imaging place to get my mri done. i have a full spine work up ordered the dr. norman. this should be interesting. it should've been earlier but here we are waiting for 6pm to roll around. i have to text grapegum later see if she'll pick my sorry ass up. otherwise, it'll be expensive town cab ride back home. it's really awful timing because i'd like to take some time off and of course work just acquired a new gen mgr so taking time off now would be just ludicrous. and possibly career killing. already they've transferred the dir. of f&b tony to another highgate property and dir. of sales alfred has been eliminated. something about cnetralizing the sales departments throughout all the hotels but keeping one rep in house for each property. makes sense instead of all the constant blackberry traffic, they can all be in one spot except for the "field agents." lol... ahh... well, change is always good, whether they fire you or relocate you. i'm sure mr. k knew this was going to happen but he couldn't have stopped it either way. good thing larry left before all the hoop-la.
i gotta freshen up for this mri think.
fight 'em til we can't. 090408/1602 hrs.
i took tues off since cynnia offered to work, not wanting to lose her vaca day and hello kitty nazi already owed me a day from when goopy's pet called out 15 min before her shift & basically screwed me to do a last min double, for an overnight i wasn't trained for. while operationally it's a good idea for everyone to know how to do every shift, let's not deny that the training was brought about because goopy's pet had whined to hello kitty nazi that it's not fair she had to the overnight's whenever jason or cynnia were out. i kind of want to explain to both of that that's how seniority works and that the number 2, in position and treatment mind you, should not have to do any overnights. if she actually schedules me for one, i'm going to refuse it. office politics is so stupid. and i'd be the first to say i didn't want her as a manager because she's such a child. Lord, she tried to call out sick because she had her period! it makes you want to laugh & then start working half assed because hard work doesn't mean much especially if someone so idiotic is favored over you just because the mr. bipolar upstairs [or under the stairs] favors her.
anyway, now i'm waiting to go the medical imaging place to get my mri done. i have a full spine work up ordered the dr. norman. this should be interesting. it should've been earlier but here we are waiting for 6pm to roll around. i have to text grapegum later see if she'll pick my sorry ass up. otherwise, it'll be expensive town cab ride back home. it's really awful timing because i'd like to take some time off and of course work just acquired a new gen mgr so taking time off now would be just ludicrous. and possibly career killing. already they've transferred the dir. of f&b tony to another highgate property and dir. of sales alfred has been eliminated. something about cnetralizing the sales departments throughout all the hotels but keeping one rep in house for each property. makes sense instead of all the constant blackberry traffic, they can all be in one spot except for the "field agents." lol... ahh... well, change is always good, whether they fire you or relocate you. i'm sure mr. k knew this was going to happen but he couldn't have stopped it either way. good thing larry left before all the hoop-la.
i gotta freshen up for this mri think.
fight 'em til we can't. 090408/1602 hrs.
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