well, last night I did my 2nd training for the overnight. cynnia is def more organized than jason, but to be fair jason had a really awful cold that night & it was prob a miracle he did the overnight. on top of being robbed at knifepoint in the bronx, he had a crappy evening. lesson learned? don't have your blackberry on your belt, especially when it's labor day weekend and there are alot of out of towners. his parents have lived in that neighborhood for 20 years and he'd never had a problem.
i took tues off since cynnia offered to work, not wanting to lose her vaca day and hello kitty nazi already owed me a day from when goopy's pet called out 15 min before her shift & basically screwed me to do a last min double, for an overnight i wasn't trained for. while operationally it's a good idea for everyone to know how to do every shift, let's not deny that the training was brought about because goopy's pet had whined to hello kitty nazi that it's not fair she had to the overnight's whenever jason or cynnia were out. i kind of want to explain to both of that that's how seniority works and that the number 2, in position and treatment mind you, should not have to do any overnights. if she actually schedules me for one, i'm going to refuse it. office politics is so stupid. and i'd be the first to say i didn't want her as a manager because she's such a child. Lord, she tried to call out sick because she had her period! it makes you want to laugh & then start working half assed because hard work doesn't mean much especially if someone so idiotic is favored over you just because the mr. bipolar upstairs [or under the stairs] favors her.
anyway, now i'm waiting to go the medical imaging place to get my mri done. i have a full spine work up ordered the dr. norman. this should be interesting. it should've been earlier but here we are waiting for 6pm to roll around. i have to text grapegum later see if she'll pick my sorry ass up. otherwise, it'll be expensive town cab ride back home. it's really awful timing because i'd like to take some time off and of course work just acquired a new gen mgr so taking time off now would be just ludicrous. and possibly career killing. already they've transferred the dir. of f&b tony to another highgate property and dir. of sales alfred has been eliminated. something about cnetralizing the sales departments throughout all the hotels but keeping one rep in house for each property. makes sense instead of all the constant blackberry traffic, they can all be in one spot except for the "field agents." lol... ahh... well, change is always good, whether they fire you or relocate you. i'm sure mr. k knew this was going to happen but he couldn't have stopped it either way. good thing larry left before all the hoop-la.
i gotta freshen up for this mri think.
fight 'em til we can't. 090408/1602 hrs.
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Thursday, September 4, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Dark Knight
last night we [giant, grapegum, madratter] went to see the Dark Knight. it was a great action movie, good storytelling, good acting all together. it's a shame heath ledger did not see the outcome of his movie; batman in general is a crowd pleaser. the movie made $18.5mil alone at the midnight showing on opening day.
batman is an interesting character because i think it shows the possibilities of (wo)man. i'm not saying we should all have a huge tragedy happen in our lives so that each individual makes a difference in the world. but we don't all to sit on our ass all day and not feel like we've contributed positively or negatively in our world.
[aside] honestly, i think that's what gets me 95% of the time at work. what does working in a hotel do to make the world better or my life more fulfilling. it's just putting out fires with guest complaints and being subjected to the dramas of 3 dozen people on a daily basis. honestly i was better off working the PM shifts because even if the rooms weren't ready or we were short on something, i went home after 10 hours. people aren't f-ing adults, they don't take responsibility for being adults, they all play games, and if thrown in the real world they'd sh!t their f-ing pants. ok, maybe not all. there are the select few who know the differences between want and need. and generally, myself included, i think people just whine too much. it's what 99% of the population is good for. rightfully so, i'm disgusted with myself at the moment for sitting on the terrace blogging while there's work to be done. on the other hand, i'm tired as fcuk. seriously every day it's the same little things at work, same complaints, same problems, same lame ass dramas. it's a good thing some people are on vacation.
speaking of vacation, i really need to take one. either that or file for a mental health leave or something. i'm not sure why i don't stand up for myself. or make my life better. i keep telling myself to finish my resume but giant made a perceived condescending observation that while i'm miserable at my job, i seem to be perfectly comfortable staying there despite all the health problems i am undoubtedly getting because of that place. instead of being subjected to a sudden traumatic event, mine is slowly being stretched on for the last 3 years. i'm dead serious when i say i'm going to blame alot of health issues on that hotel. it's got bad karma, bad energy. ulcers, tumors, cancer [from the asbestos], constant migraines, even ptsd (post traumatic stress disorder). i should get a therapist.
speaking of therapist, that's what batman should've gotten. the duality of a man. a madman tempered by humanity. tragedy's a bitch i tell you. there are some days i feel like the family is toppling because for some reason i thought my parents would live f-ing forever. and now that one's gone, it's a broken formation; there's a drill sergeant missing. the psychology of batman is going to be playing on the history channel this weekend. i hope i remember to watch it; i'll probably forget. the old man wants to go Borgata this weekend. maybe i'll win something at the slots, enough for an unnecessary coach bag at the outlets down there.
i keep saying i need to make change and i can't get myself out of this rut. it's not even the all encompassing, final kind of destruction i'm doing to myself. it's more the passive, stroll to a slow practical death. i'm not happy, bottom line. i'm amused by things, interest is peaked on certain things but generally i have no desire to expend energy on anything. and once i get through the hurdle = lack of motivation, my life would start to pick up and my happiness would eventually increase. i look at those around me, upper management for example. do i really want to be there? do i really want to aspire to be that kind of a person? and giant said he will not have our relationship dictated by a j-o-b. it's not even a career. and right now i make no money, comparatively, to the position i hold and the work i do. it's f-ing ridiculous. sweatshop workers are subjected to conditions as such because they have no choice/desperation or society traps them in social classes forced to work in those conditions. a social essay aside, i'm not one of those people. this is a voluntary imprisonment. all i'm saying is sweatshop workers know what they are in for and no i'm not being insensitive to their lives or their poverty. i have no idea why i'm being abused, most often by people ruled by their whims, mood swings, hedonistic goals, or who's life is monitored by their own stupidity or ignorance. i work long hours, frustrated by lack of tools, lack of motivating appreciative leaders, and general malcontent towards the machine. and yet i don't have to be.
the world is a tough place and people are sheltered. sheltered by their class, their financial situation, their parents. everyone should at least know what it's like to be really hungry and not know when you're going to eat next.
1608 hrs/072308
batman is an interesting character because i think it shows the possibilities of (wo)man. i'm not saying we should all have a huge tragedy happen in our lives so that each individual makes a difference in the world. but we don't all to sit on our ass all day and not feel like we've contributed positively or negatively in our world.
[aside] honestly, i think that's what gets me 95% of the time at work. what does working in a hotel do to make the world better or my life more fulfilling. it's just putting out fires with guest complaints and being subjected to the dramas of 3 dozen people on a daily basis. honestly i was better off working the PM shifts because even if the rooms weren't ready or we were short on something, i went home after 10 hours. people aren't f-ing adults, they don't take responsibility for being adults, they all play games, and if thrown in the real world they'd sh!t their f-ing pants. ok, maybe not all. there are the select few who know the differences between want and need. and generally, myself included, i think people just whine too much. it's what 99% of the population is good for. rightfully so, i'm disgusted with myself at the moment for sitting on the terrace blogging while there's work to be done. on the other hand, i'm tired as fcuk. seriously every day it's the same little things at work, same complaints, same problems, same lame ass dramas. it's a good thing some people are on vacation.
speaking of vacation, i really need to take one. either that or file for a mental health leave or something. i'm not sure why i don't stand up for myself. or make my life better. i keep telling myself to finish my resume but giant made a perceived condescending observation that while i'm miserable at my job, i seem to be perfectly comfortable staying there despite all the health problems i am undoubtedly getting because of that place. instead of being subjected to a sudden traumatic event, mine is slowly being stretched on for the last 3 years. i'm dead serious when i say i'm going to blame alot of health issues on that hotel. it's got bad karma, bad energy. ulcers, tumors, cancer [from the asbestos], constant migraines, even ptsd (post traumatic stress disorder). i should get a therapist.
speaking of therapist, that's what batman should've gotten. the duality of a man. a madman tempered by humanity. tragedy's a bitch i tell you. there are some days i feel like the family is toppling because for some reason i thought my parents would live f-ing forever. and now that one's gone, it's a broken formation; there's a drill sergeant missing. the psychology of batman is going to be playing on the history channel this weekend. i hope i remember to watch it; i'll probably forget. the old man wants to go Borgata this weekend. maybe i'll win something at the slots, enough for an unnecessary coach bag at the outlets down there.
i keep saying i need to make change and i can't get myself out of this rut. it's not even the all encompassing, final kind of destruction i'm doing to myself. it's more the passive, stroll to a slow practical death. i'm not happy, bottom line. i'm amused by things, interest is peaked on certain things but generally i have no desire to expend energy on anything. and once i get through the hurdle = lack of motivation, my life would start to pick up and my happiness would eventually increase. i look at those around me, upper management for example. do i really want to be there? do i really want to aspire to be that kind of a person? and giant said he will not have our relationship dictated by a j-o-b. it's not even a career. and right now i make no money, comparatively, to the position i hold and the work i do. it's f-ing ridiculous. sweatshop workers are subjected to conditions as such because they have no choice/desperation or society traps them in social classes forced to work in those conditions. a social essay aside, i'm not one of those people. this is a voluntary imprisonment. all i'm saying is sweatshop workers know what they are in for and no i'm not being insensitive to their lives or their poverty. i have no idea why i'm being abused, most often by people ruled by their whims, mood swings, hedonistic goals, or who's life is monitored by their own stupidity or ignorance. i work long hours, frustrated by lack of tools, lack of motivating appreciative leaders, and general malcontent towards the machine. and yet i don't have to be.
the world is a tough place and people are sheltered. sheltered by their class, their financial situation, their parents. everyone should at least know what it's like to be really hungry and not know when you're going to eat next.
1608 hrs/072308
Monday, June 30, 2008
communication
today at work, i missed a vital part of the morning meeting where the gm had said that the temp comptroller is to get a specially prepared room due to her allergies. i blocked a room for said comptroller but did not leave any notes as to why, considering i had no idea why a dnu should be in place. later on, when the kidd checked her in he changed the room out to something comparable and thought nothing of it. i got the heat for it of course because i didn't put any alerts on the file. cynnia got questioned as to why there are no alerts & she smartly answered just because it's comp by you, the gm, doesn't mean we block rooms for it. he said that's why he stressed it this morning & the honestly blank look on his face made him realize i wasn't at the meeting yet when he said it. i told him i didn't know that it was going to be a specially made room otherwise i would've put notes. ugh... anyway, next time i'll just make the leap and assume i should tell the entire world there's another comp room on the list and we should do everything in our ability to scramble at the beck and call like the peons below when zeus throws down his lightning bolts.
anyhoot... queenliz is in croatia. who knows if she'll come back. well she has to, she's got responsibilities here but considering when i spoke to her today before boarding the plane she had no return ticket purchased, i may wonder. she said i should go visit but not having a u.s. passport, i may not want to step out its borders.
i've got to make a move man. i'm sick of this.
today's horoscope: "You know that you have to contend with a powerful person now, even if it's unpleasant just thinking about it. Luckily, once you begin a conversation, it will go a lot more smoothly than you think. Your greatest strength is your mental agility, so don't stiffen up under the tension. If you can remain flexible and are willing to learn from your opponent, you'll probably get what you need out of the interaction."
i wonder if the goop's gonna start something tomorrow with me because he was off today. for some reason, i do stiffen up. i hate confrontations.
tomorrow's horoscope: "It's challenging when there are so many things to do that if you try to do them all, you'll end up doing none of them well. On the other hand, if you focus on finishing one task before you start the next, there still will be much left undone. Although it may be less fun, the quality of your work now is more important than the quantity."
apparently i need to learn to delegate. i'm so tired these days i don't even give a rat's ass about the quality so long as i get the list done.
fight 'em til you can't. 063008/2259 hrs
anyhoot... queenliz is in croatia. who knows if she'll come back. well she has to, she's got responsibilities here but considering when i spoke to her today before boarding the plane she had no return ticket purchased, i may wonder. she said i should go visit but not having a u.s. passport, i may not want to step out its borders.
i've got to make a move man. i'm sick of this.
today's horoscope: "You know that you have to contend with a powerful person now, even if it's unpleasant just thinking about it. Luckily, once you begin a conversation, it will go a lot more smoothly than you think. Your greatest strength is your mental agility, so don't stiffen up under the tension. If you can remain flexible and are willing to learn from your opponent, you'll probably get what you need out of the interaction."
i wonder if the goop's gonna start something tomorrow with me because he was off today. for some reason, i do stiffen up. i hate confrontations.
tomorrow's horoscope: "It's challenging when there are so many things to do that if you try to do them all, you'll end up doing none of them well. On the other hand, if you focus on finishing one task before you start the next, there still will be much left undone. Although it may be less fun, the quality of your work now is more important than the quantity."
apparently i need to learn to delegate. i'm so tired these days i don't even give a rat's ass about the quality so long as i get the list done.
fight 'em til you can't. 063008/2259 hrs
Sunday, June 29, 2008
horoscopes
today's [or is it tomorrow's] horoscope says:
"You might think that someone is purposefully messing with you behind the scenes, but it's not something you'll be able to prove. Instead of trying to bring hidden facts or secret motives out into the open today, just go about your business in a straightforward way. Don't get into a tit-for-tat strategy. You can't win now if you try to outwit someone trying to outwit you."
what the hell? considering how work is and the political climate there... though it could be worse. it could always be worse! lol. at least i still have my sense of humor.
i'm going to bed, after my 3 hour nap. i'm tired.
fight 'em til you can't. 062908 0119hrs.
"You might think that someone is purposefully messing with you behind the scenes, but it's not something you'll be able to prove. Instead of trying to bring hidden facts or secret motives out into the open today, just go about your business in a straightforward way. Don't get into a tit-for-tat strategy. You can't win now if you try to outwit someone trying to outwit you."
what the hell? considering how work is and the political climate there... though it could be worse. it could always be worse! lol. at least i still have my sense of humor.
i'm going to bed, after my 3 hour nap. i'm tired.
fight 'em til you can't. 062908 0119hrs.
Monday, May 19, 2008
accepting flaws
4 years. saturday was most enlightening. it wasn't bad, it wasn't good. it was just enlightening in a factual way. like the cheese stands alone & my GOD i have no one to talk to. make like spooky i guess.
i have a hard time accepting people's flaws. you can be a douche & i will find a way to tolerate your personality enough that we could go out for drinks & hang out. it's just too much energy to dislike a person. but i swear, sometimes whether they know it or not a person just cannot be liked. either our personalities/ethics/morals don't mesh or you're just not a likeable person. and Lord help me i'm not sure why i've ended up in place with certain people i wouldn't have been exposed to for not the circumstances, like work.
sugarpunk also taught me never to say sorry if i don't mean. it's just a waste of breath and no one likes insincere people. funnily enough, the most annoying thing about the pmt is how it changes you. because honestly, in order to survive there. you've got to have a poker face & be a fantastic liar.
fight 'em til you can't. 2301 hrs.
i have a hard time accepting people's flaws. you can be a douche & i will find a way to tolerate your personality enough that we could go out for drinks & hang out. it's just too much energy to dislike a person. but i swear, sometimes whether they know it or not a person just cannot be liked. either our personalities/ethics/morals don't mesh or you're just not a likeable person. and Lord help me i'm not sure why i've ended up in place with certain people i wouldn't have been exposed to for not the circumstances, like work.
sugarpunk also taught me never to say sorry if i don't mean. it's just a waste of breath and no one likes insincere people. funnily enough, the most annoying thing about the pmt is how it changes you. because honestly, in order to survive there. you've got to have a poker face & be a fantastic liar.
fight 'em til you can't. 2301 hrs.
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